Zuen Kay--27th Birthday..

another year of hurting..

hmmm... it's another year of remembering he's death..but the emptiness is still here inside of me..I still miss him.. I still want him here..I still cry..there are still so many words left unspoken..if only he knew how much i love him...the best tito, that he is..

HornyPonyMagic: Friends with benefits

HornyPonyMagic: Friends with benefits

asexual relationships

Relationships

Asexual people have the same emotional needs as anyone else, and like in the sexual community they vary widely in how they fulfill those needs. Some asexual people are happier on their own, others are happiest with a group of close friends. Other asexual people have a desire to form more intimate romantic relationships, and will date and seek long-term partnerships. Asexual people are just as likely to date sexual people as we are to date each other.

Sexual or nonsexual, all relationships are made up of the same basic stuff. Communication, closeness, fun, humour, excitement and trust all happen just as much in sexual relationships as in nonsexual ones. Unlike sexual people, asexual people are given few expectations about the way that our intimate relationships will work. Figuring out how to flirt, to be intimate, or to be monogamous in a nonsexual relationships can be challenging, but free of sexual expectations we can form relationships in ways that are grounded in our individual needs and desires.

Attraction

Many asexual people experience attraction, but  feel no need to act out that attraction sexually. Instead they feel a desire to get to know someone, to get close to them in whatever way works best for them. Some asexuals describe attraction as "romantic", "platonic", or "aesthetic" attraction, to differentiate them from sexual attraction. Asexual people who experience attraction will often be attracted to a particular gender, and will identify as gay, bi, or straight.

Arousal

For some sexual arousal is a fairly regular occurrence, though it is not associated with a desire to find a sexual partner or partners. Some will occasionally masturbate, but feel no desire for partnered sexuality. Other asexual people experience little or no arousal. Because we don’t care about sex, asexual people generally do not see a lack of sexual arousal as a problem to be corrected, and focus their energy on enjoying other types of arousal and pleasure.

Note: People do not need sexual arousal to be healthy, but in a minority of cases a lack of arousal can be the symptom of a more serious medical condition. If you do not experience sexual arousal or if you suddenly lose interest in sex you should probably check with a doctor just to be safe.

Identity

There is no litmus test to determine if someone is asexual. Asexuality is like any other identity- at its core, it’s just a word that people use to help figure themselves out.

black sheep...

lima kaming magkakapatid..
apat na babae at isang lalaki..
babae ang tatlong panganay..
at ako ang bunso..

may mga pagkakataong kinikilatis ko ang ugali ng apat kong kapatid...
meron sakanila ang galit sa mundo..ewan ko ba kung bakit, saming 5 sya ung laging galit at bad vibes..

meron din namang story teller.. kwento ng kwento ng kung anu-ano at minsan kailangan mong usisahin kung 100% bang totoo ang kanyang kwento..dahil kadalasan sa 100 na sinasabi nya 90% dun ay di totoo o di kaya ay may dagdag at bawas na..

may kapatid din naman akong pasikat, ung tipong lahat sakanya ay tama at nakakatuwa..sya daw ang magaling, sya daw ang matalino..well..okay..haha..sya daw ang bida..isa pa, lagi ka nyang ipapahiya sa harap ng ibang tao at maraming tao..

meron din naman tong si paawa effect, laging sya ang inaapi at nasasaktan..

meron din naman tong nakakabwisit na kung makapang-asar..minsan o kaya kadalasan hindi na sya nakakatuwa...


haaay.. we have the same blood running in our veins but we have different personalities..but still, i love them..mga kapatid ko sila ehh.. may mga bagay lang talaga na hindi namin napagkakasunduan...


kung may mga pagkakataon na magkakasama kami, minsan mas pinipili kong mag-isa o kaya umalis nalang..dahil sa totoo lang hindi namna ako masyadong masaya dahil hindi kami magkakapareho ng trip sa buhay..

alam kung ayaw nila sa akin, aminado naman akong hindi ako mabuti at ideal na kapatid...hindi ko naman ginustong maging iba ako sakanila..pinilit kong baguhin ang sarili  ko, pero mahirap at nakakawala sa sarili...

ngayon, ginagawa ko ang alam kong makapagpapasaya sa akin, ang ipaglaban ang taong mahal ko at piliing makasama sya sa mga panahong masaya silang apat na magkakasama....


at ako na nga ang black sheep ng  pamilya..

=(

“There was this one time Justin was at his most fragile. It was March 15th and we were on the bus, coming back home from a concert. He was really quiet and tired and we all know bieber is never like that. I asked him what was wrong and he told me that he saw a couple girls crying outside the arena he performed at today. I thought to myself, so many girls cry over him every day, why is he bothered about these particular two? I said to him that girls all over the world cry over him every minute. He asked me why I thought girls cry over him and I just assumed it was because they love him, so then I asked him why they were crying. He said they were crying because they didn’t have enough money to buy his concert tickets but they will wait until the end of their lives to hear him sing. My eyes started to fill up and so were Justins but I continued asking because it seemed like something deeper was bothering him. He then said to me that the girls said “Justin, do you remember the time when you said you couldn’t fall in love with someone because you don’t know them personally? So how can we be so deeply in love with you?” Then he said the girls started to cry some more. I didn’t know what to say, because I had never seen him like this. He always knew what to say or do but he just put his head on my shoulder. He put his cap over his face so no one would see him like that, I knew he was crying because I could feel his heavy breathing. In about 40 minutes, he fell asleep and at that very moment… I knew he was a regular person, like you and I. I didn’t answer him that day, because I didn’t know what to say.” - Kenny Hamilton.